Before i Go Go

Well it's nearly my bday and i am about to go on this beach trip with my mates.

Before i go i have to mention a few things -

1) I didn't realise how many people i know are now reading this Blog so i might have to start up a new one (and not tell anyone it really is scary when your mates ask you about some of the blog entries) ;)
2) I have a guy that is keen on me (and me on him a little) so i guess what i am saying is i've meet someone but i am keeping it low key and i have to much on my plate to be thinking of getting a new BF LOL (yeah like i am whacking them all away with a broom hehe)
3) Got into my Music Industry course which is pretty sweet for me cause it's what i want to do.

So until i get back BYEEEE

Radiohead Thinkin, Twilight Dreaming

So what to report?

- Well i got a new Laptop last week and loving it to death.
- I find out if i got into this Music Business Course next monday (www.myspace.com/puppetswhokill)
- Got Insanly mad tonight had to goto my best mates house to calm down.
- Listening to Radiohead at 5pm in the morning (I think Street Spirt is so my funeral song LOL)
- My Bday next week turning 28
-Got a Camping trip this week
- Was told i am looking great by so many people latly (the fuckin diet is paying off) until this fucker i know told me i look fat still but no worries i made a comment about how "No One can be perfect like you BALDY" ;)
- Ohh wait Karma Police is my Funeral song yep that the one
- A friend of mine got back with his EX.

"For a minute thier i lost myself, i lost myself for a minute i lost myself, i lost myself" that reminds me i got to do some Karooke


- My boss is cool about me getting off Graveyards to do this course so i still got a job.
- I am not bloody leaveing at 8.30pm to goto Sorento
- Broke
- Loving having my flatmates car for the last 2 weeks he ain't getting it back
- Sold my Gamecube and the new Zelda game, an era ends of me loving Nintendo
- MUSEEEEEEE is around the fuckin corner bring on the Speed and the mosh pitt
- Went on a Date with a cool guy
- Found out i don't have a sister like i thought
- Found out the family dirty secret cause i am "old enough" assholes
- Might change my false surname POLAK to something more cool like LLOYD (mates will get that one)
- Fell in love with the Lead Singer of Teenager (former Pnau) OMG he is sooo hot go see the album cover you will know what i mean.
- Went to St Jeromnes tonight what a bloody disappointment if i wanted to be cramped in hallways i would goto Club 80 and at least get some touch up action.
- I am not str8 so the girl that likes me PISS OF
- Rugby and AFL is comeing back time to dust off the Melbourne Storm Top
- 2 parking finds and i ain't paying them (well shit i have to it's not my car)


So their you go some shit thats happaning

YAY a NON SEXUAL BLOG ENTRY it can be done

Hmmm Romantic LOL How Pathetic?

Something is bothering me latly.

Everytime i meet someone new i feel that i am afraid to be an old school romantic with them. Has the scene become so much about sex that guys like myself are afraid that if i show any sign that i like to courtship a guy they run? It makes me feel within myself that it's bad and it scares me to think nice thoughts like dinner dates or a nice walk down the beach with a guy is cosidered dull. In the scene, when meeting a guy 90% of them want to fuck first and sometimes judge you on that root if they want to go further. Take my new flatemate for example he is looking for a BF but he goes about it all wrong, by picking them up from a club, bonk them and then decides that the guy wasn't the one and repeat it again the next week. Thing is with that way of trying to find love you feel empty inside and when a guy actually ask's him out for a coffee date he thinks it's strange "gay guys don't do that" he would say. How did it become so easy to fuck a guy and yet be strange to meet up for coffee? I was thinking of all the cool things i would do with a guy if i was off the market and i feel that being gay is nothing like being straight it's all about the fuck (don't get me wrong i love sex as much as the next guy).

How sad that Gay Men seem to go through life like this.

Recently a good mate of mine told me about how his new BF and him recently had a shower together for the first time. He walked in while he was showering and just jumped in with him. FUCK yeah that to me is amazing and i thought how sweet i wonder if my flatemate would do that with one of his one nighters?

The Fine Art Of Not What To Do When You Like Someone

Thing with me is i'm to nice and nice when it come to guys can be a little bit shit. Take for example last thursday night, i was pretty excitted that i was going to finally catch up with Matt (not using real names) who i been keen on catching up after our first encounter months ago. Matt is a cool guy he is pretty damn sexy/hot/cute (you get the picture) right up my ally when it comes to guys, in other words he is my type. Now knowing that i was going to catch up with him thursday i told myself that i was going to play this one a little diffrent, in that i mean i was going to play it cool and not be a chaser. In the past i have always been the chaser and have liked a few guys that i happily chased. Thing is i always end up figuring out that the guys i like never like me and it's a patern that seems to repeat all the fuckin time so this time with Matt i was going to play it slow and not come across to egar. While i was Dj'ing he came upto me and said hello and i am sure that would have takin some guts he told me that he had been here for a bit watching me and i was quite happy to know this. I was so pleased to finally see him again after months of chatting online and SMS that i got a little dumbfound and he too was a little on the awkard side and after a bit of a chat he went away to dance. Now this is where i realised that i like this guy it's not a stupid crush or he's cute might fuck him thing at all he has something about him that got my attention and i will be honest not many gay guys do that. After a while i was starting to wonder why he hadn't come back to talk to me and thought he was respecting the fact i was doing my job and didn't want to bother me (bother me, bother me LOL) and i couldn't wait to finish my set to go hang with him. After i had finished i noticed that he had gone (this isn't the first time he had done this) and i started to think "oh fuck he isn't into me and did a runner" and i started to pack my stuff and was pretty much ready to go home with my tail between my legs but after i sat in the car for 5 minutes something inside me thought NO i am going to ring this guy and get the story.
He answered but i couldn't hear nothing but really camp music, THE PEEL i thought right i'm going down there. I walked in and stood at the edge of the dance floor i could see him and thought i'll wait till he catches my eye and see what happens well he sore me all right and walked straight over and said hello again i wasn't mad at him i just wanted to hang and chat. After i got introduced to his cool flatemate, who i danced with most of the night i noticed that Matt was not really trying to dance with me he looked over a fair bit to see if i was watching and i was but this is where the stupid playing it cool thing came into effect, i like him but i somehow convinced myself that this guy isn't into me and thats how most of the night went until the early morning where i noticed he had red jocks on. I forgot i told him about my little fetish and was qutie pleased to know that he was wearing them "You're wearing red jocks" i said "Yes of coarse, i wore them for you" IT HIT ME LIKE A SHIT BRICK what the fuck was i doing here i am playing the oppisite of what i would do normally to the wrong guy, this guy wants to be chased, he wants me to make the first move, HE WANTS ME TO BE THE BUTCH GAY GUY THAT I AM LOL. Thing is i was still not 100% sure he was keen and even though he must think that all i want is to root the guy casue he is wearing red jocks he was wrong and after i asked him who in the club he had his eye on and he didn't say me (he asked me the same and i told him it was well HIM) might be time to go. He disappeared again and i had decided that maybe i am being silly and even though i was trying to be all hard to get i wanted him pretty bad but it was time to go the Red Bull had worn off and i was tired so i went to say goodbye to him. He looked a little disappointed but he was nice enough to walk me to the door and then asked what i was upto tommrow night in which i replied "depends on what you ask me to do?" i gave him a kiss on the cheek to say goodnight "Oh our first kiss i think we can do better than that" he said and we pashed. I was about to walk out the door after the 30sec pash and i got another little instinct, something told me not to stop at that and i decided i had to go back. I finally got the hint. He was talking to his flatemate and he looked like he just told him he kissed me (he looked a little excited... good sign) i grabbed him and told him he was one hard boy to read and thats when he said that it was me that was hard to read and we kissed a little bit longer this time. I left that night (alone) on a high even though i asked him to come back to my place for sex i was glad we didn't (he had some mates from his home town at the club) which brings me to my next point, i am a romantic and to me what i did that night was something along the lines of being romantic, yes i was playing hard to get and i thought he was as well but the end result was awesome we got thier in the end.

but....

Friday night had come along and i thought going to hang out with Matt was going to be cool i had wanted to do this for a few months and last night it was kind of hard to chat in a club enviroment so i jumped online and noticed he was on so we chatted about the night before. I realised something during this conversation that i was being to laid back and he actually said that when he first chatted to me that i gave off a hint that i wasn't interested. Was he kidding i was totally interested i was just being a stupid dickhead that should have just been himself from the start and now think i might have given the wrong impression (that i am just after a root etc). I asked him if he was still keen on catching up (fish and chips at the beach was the plain) but he told me honestly that he had been partying for 2 nights and it's caught up with him and he feels sick. Thursday i will be catching up with him (fingers crossed) he better bloody catch up with me LOL.

New Years Night 2006

Well 2006 is over.

Last night was insane I had finished work at 10pm and my good mate Mike was waiting for me out the front for an hour (poor guy) a few of us had decided to meet at a dance club called The Public Office (Witness) which is a gay rave thing that a lot of Q and A people seem to go to when it’s on. I was pretty excited about tonight it’s the first time Mike and I had done a New Years together and also the first that Darren and his new Boyfriend Daniel would spend together. I made a decision I was going to have too much fun tonight and that included a pill and lots of beer (I ended up scoring a second pill later on). Ran into some old faces that I hadn’t seen or chatted to for ages including Liam a guy I bonked a while ago who all night was my pash buddy LOL it’s great we both have this understanding that it’s just fun and that we don’t like each other in that way. I had to laugh I tried to embarrass Darren with his new BF with stories of America but I think I just came across like some drugged fucked idiot hehehe. We all know that when a person is high as a kite, as I was that conversations with random people can be intense, take for example my chat with some lesbians and my bluntness in how the hell they have sex and what the fuck does Scissor Sistering do in creating pleasure? They loved me for my honesty and questions and as we all where off our faces they happily went along with it. Later on I ended up talking to Nick who is this guy that I will be involved with when I need someone to shoot a music clip for a future band I’ll manage and his mate Cam who looked a lot like Mike Skinner from the Streets by then it was daylight and this Cam guy was quite happy to take advantage of me as I was of him but I was starting to feel sick and taking anyone home at that stage was a big no no.

My mate Richard rocked up which was great but he sore me at my highest point of Ecstasy so my conversation with him was limited and he didn’t stay long. Darren left early (I new he would) and Mike left a little after that so I was pretty much alone in regards to close mates for a few hours. When morning finally broke and I think it was like 7am I decided it was time to go home I was done and happily walked home knowing that was a good New Years Eve and that 2007 is a new direction for me.

The Fine Art Of Masturbating With a Mate

Question – Is it ok to have a wank with a mate? Answer – When it comes to this mate i am refering to I can’t see why not.

Recently me and a good mate of mine decided to watch some porn and bat one out next to each other with no touching of course. I have to admit I was very turned on by this I didn’t want to do anything sexual to him just the fact that we both where calmly jerking off to the same porn was really fun and I want to do it again.

Question – Is it ok to want to fuck a mate? Answer – Well no but this one isn’t as close yet then the rest of them.

Thing is I don’t look at any of my mates in that way even though I have done stuff with some of them when we first meet the more you get to know them the more you stop looking at them in that way. There is one new mate that I am a little sexually attracted to and don’t know how to go about relieving that sexual tension without it fuckin things up between us. He knows who it is him that i'm keen on and I am trying my hardest to control myself.

What to do in this situation? Any help would be great fellow bloggers.

Irishman and Studs

My sex life has never been anything to write home to mother about I have gottin by over the years but JUST. Recently I have been a little more on the lucky side in regards to picking up which is something I never really had before, take last Thursday night it was Q and A’s 11th Bday (in which I DJ at) after a night of partying and Djing and drugs I was a little to over confident but I was having a great time with my close mates especially my friend (slut) Richard.

Pick UP no1

There is this guy that a few people seem to be interested in named Liam. I to have found a little attraction to him but always thought he was out of my league so whenever I chat to him I just be myself and not come on like I want him. Well it paid off and last Thursday while in the toilet with my mate Richard, Liam walks in and after a bit of a chat he comes into the cubical with me while I was pissing and starts kissing my neck, had a bit of a laugh and left it at that. My last set of the night at 3am I was pretty out of it and I noticed that Liam was waving good bye to me from afar I called him over to give him a hug goodbye and told him that this is my last song of the night and that if he needed a lift I can give it to him (yes I was wasted I already feel bad about driving) and he agreed. While all of this was happing my friend Richard was busy getting with my flatmate so I knew what was gonna happen when I got home with those two LOL. I have to admit Liam was fuckin fun in bed me being a total top and him being a total bottom it just works brilliantly and lets just say in the coarse of 4 hours I bonked him 3 times. When Richard and I where finally alone we talked about the night we both just had and how we both picked up, Richard turned to me and said I am still horny what porn you got and we both went and had a wank together (the mates only wank no touching no looking kind) the point of this is that I cummed 4 times that night some would say that’s a fair effort LOL I say YEAH BABY.

Pick UP no2

Saturday night was interesting I was pretty much set to go home after work and chill for the night but as soon as I got home Oliver (my flatmate) was already on his way to being totally trashed and was begging me to come with him to The Market, he was going to meet a guy their and didn’t want to go alone so after some convincing I thought fuck it I am in the mood. Soon as I was in the door me and Oliver went looking for the guy he was to meet and soon as he found him I was off to the dance floor, had my eye on someone. Went to the bar to get a drink and this hot looking Irishman said hello WELL IRISHMAN are fuckin hot and so I decided to chat to the guy on the couches. To be honest I was 50/50 on this guy he told me that he had just moved here and that he was BI, married to a bi wife and they had an open relationship I was like hmmm he might just be after a chat and someone to hang with. He wanted some fresh air and so we decided to go out the front in which he said how far to your house and I knew then that he was after some action and fuck so was I (did I mention Irishman are hot) I am surprised we made it home we kept stopping and kissing then walked a few more steps and repeated I had to piss really badly and because I had an erection it was bloody funny. I bonked this guy twice he told me he hadn’t been with a guy in like 2 years in which I was honoured to be his first in such a long time but what made this guy special was the fact that he was so keen on wrapping up himself in me afterwards but unfortunately he left a few hours later. Hope he calls me in the future it would be cool to hang out again.

So that’s my pick up stories this week join me next week as I tell all about Meredith Music Festival and what adventures I have on that trip.